Am I A Bad Mother

I left the school selection and decision in the hands of my husband. She hasn't been herself, so on Friday I took off from work and trekked into NJ and picked cutie face up from school.

I couldn't ask any questions because I was fighting back tears. The room she is in all day is smaller than her bedroom. We live in NYC so her bedroom is really small - hence "to the burbs". When the teacher said she liked the playground and playing with the older kids - all I could think is YEAH - look at where she is the rest of the time. Nothing against the other 3 children in her class of which 2 were special needs. My daughter is a very smart almost 2 who knows and sings the alphabet in English and Hebrew, sings songs in several languages (I'm counting Frere Jaques) and answers questions Dora poses. Well maybe "umbrella" was a guess, but What should we take to protect us from the rain? she said umbrella.

Do I quit my job and pull her out ASAP?
Do I find another school and wait until Sept to start? That's what I'm doing. Am I a bad mother?
I'm actually furious with Paulo - How did he pick this place. They have dozens of choices in NJ. We could always go back to the school she was in. Except for the fact that I didn't like one child who liked to hit. At least she still sings songs with hand and dance motions from that school. Her favorite is "Fire Truck" by Ivan Utz.